I woke up this morning with a weird memory of writing a blog post. It was kind of like how you remember a dream as it starts to fade but I checked the website and sure enough there was a new post. I know I wanted to try and write again starting October 1 and I guess I stuck to that goal. What came out though is quite odd.
I got home yesterday feeling fairly sick. Headache, nausea, exhaustion, etc. Standard stuff for me about once every other week. I decided to hit the hay fairly early and I guess I wrote that post in some kind of pre-sleep haze. Clearly I wasn’t feeling very good but still had a bunch of random stuff floating around in what is left of my mind these days. I find it very interesting how the brain do things without the conscious mind really knowing what is happening and I guess that is exactly how things played out last night. I even wrote the post on my iPad which takes no small amount of coordination when one is laying down sideways in bed and is half asleep. All in all I guess the post could have been worse. Still, even to me it is weird, random, and a bit unnerving.
Anyway, October is here and I have a goal of 31 days of blogging. I find that I am really good at setting goals but not so good at actually meeting them. I have no illusions of my own commitment to anything these days. When it comes to self improvement I am unbelievably lazy. I am not a lazy person but with matters of taking care of myself I am a huge failure. I keep trying though so let’s see if I can make it this time.
As far yesterday, it stands as proof that sometimes I am not in my right mind. Although, I have yet to have a true understanding of what my “right mind” really is.