September is always an interesting month for me for many reasons. I have big time commitments I have to meet every year as well as help work on things like planning my daughter’s birthday party the first week in October. This year is no different except that it may be even busier this year due to the added responsibility of coaching my daughter’s soccer team. Even with everything I have to do both as a father and as as professional, there is one other thing that has to get on my plate. That other thing is this blog/website/thing.
The blog came into existence in 2003 but I had been toying with different websites and domains on a personal level for some time before that point. Without going into the history of the thing, it became a blog shortly before my daughter was born. Over the years since the amount of content has ebbed and flowed along with its overall value to myself and the world in general. That is IF any one personal website can be said to have any value at all. It is a concept that is at least extremely debatable. Anyway, over that time I have trashed the site more times than I can count and flirted with taking it down entirely. The one or two of you out there that have been around that long probably remember all the other times I have written similar posts about bringing the site down for one reason or another and those issues I wrote about then are still relevant today. The overriding concern, however, is that I just don’t have anything to write about…or can write about. Oh I have plenty of things to say but I have decided that this is not the forum for much of what I REALLY want to talk about. It is just too public. So, where does that leave me? I don’t know but it is time to find out.
I am giving myself the month of September to either get things around here busy living or get busy dying. The renewal is coming up soon and money is tight so if I can’t find any personal value (what the rest of the world thinks is a non-issue) in the site then I think it is time to kill it and move on to something else. There are some things I want to explore in the mean time. The first is moving the site to WordPress. As much as I feel connected to MovableType, I just don’t feel like there is a community around the software like there is for WordPress. Maybe joining that community will give this blog a reason to live. I also want to get back to the things I used to enjoy about having the site. Things like sharing photos, opinions on film, and thoughts on philosophical issues. Again, none of that may have any value to the rest of the world but I enjoyed it and really what is a personal blog than an exercise in vanity?
The long and short comes down to this…I have 30 days to decide whether or not to continue here. So if there was ever anything you wanted me to write about, now is the time to ask. I can’t guarantee I can address everything but I will leave that open. Personally I hope that I find my passion for blogging and the internet in general again.